InScribed, Inseparable, and a sob story

Last night I fell apart.

I spent about 40 minutes doing the ugly cry, on the verge of what felt like a nervous break down. My sweet 11-month-old son tried every trick in his book to get me to laugh, finally settling for wiping at my tears and giving me kisses. My husband said soothing words and stroked my tear-soaked hair back. And I just sobbed on.

There is a. lot. going on in my life right now. We’ve been in our new hometown in the Pacific Northwest looking for a place to live this week, and tomorrow is pretty much the last day we have to nail things down. We’ve measured every piece of furniture we own so we know how much we can fit in a new place, gotten estimates on how much it will cost to move stuff here, and are working through what all we could just sell or give away instead. We’re selling our house. We’re figuring out how to get vehicles across the country and timing the packing/arrival of the truck with our one-way flights. We’re working on re-homing our two precious dogs, who have been our “fur babies” for the past 8+ years. Our son has been teething and had a stomach bug the first part of the week, which meant several rounds of throwing up (on me, of course) in the middle of the night and no sleep. Friday we have another long day of travel and are praying we all make it through without catching another bug. The logistics and challenges of moving 2500 miles away never end. We have two weeks left before the move, so I’m trying to finish my time in Nashville well, hug as many of our friends as possible, eat at all my favorite restaurants, and oh yeah, write a book.

All this to say… in the aftermath of my mess I’m going to tell you a bit about my book and the community of authors called InScribed that I’m so honored to be a part of. I hope this post is more coherent than I feel right now! (UPDATE: check out the giveaway at the end!)

Much of my life I have struggled with depression, hating myself, and being afraid of God. Several years ago, thanks to my first official mentor, I started discovering that instead of living in fear and wanting to be someone else, I could actually be confident in knowing that God loves me. It sounds so simple… but it has really been a long journey for me to accept the fact that because I’m in Christ, God sees me so differently than I often see myself. When He looks at me, He doesn’t see my mistakes or the times I’ve doubted Him or the things I wish were different about myself. He sees Jesus covering me, molding and rearranging me to be more like Him as I allow Him to saturate more and more of my life.

All this is what has prompted me to write Inseparable: Who I Am, Was, and Will Be in Christ. I have a hunch that I’m not alone in the search for who I am and what I’m worth to God. There are some really exciting things throughout Scripture that have come to life for me and helped me see myself through His eyes–an identity that has been mine since the day I became His, even though it took me a while to grow into it. An identity that transcends space and time and other people’s opinions. An identity that is challenging yet also very practical. What does it mean to be “in Christ” and for Him to be in us? If the God who spoke the universe into existence is living in me, what does that mean for my everyday life? I hope this interactive Bible study will encourage us all to become more of who God has already made us.

But no matter what comes, we will always taste victory through Him who loved us. For I have every confidence that nothing—not death, life, heavenly messengers, dark spirits, the present, the future, spiritual powers, height, depth, nor any created thing—can come between us and the love of God revealed in the Anointed, Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:37-39, The Voice)

Now about the author community! God has brought together a group of amazing women who are intensely following Jesus and living out the Word. Together we are InScribed, a unique author community sharing our hearts for Bible study because we believe in the power of God’s Word. I am humbled to get to serve alongside such incredible women, to laugh with them, to cry with them, to grow with them. Here’s a little taste of our group:

Be sure to check out the InScribed blog hop this week and connect with my fellow authors: Heather ZempelJenifer JerniganSarah Francis MartinAmanda HaleyDonna Gaines, and Wendy Blight.

Also be sure to sign up for more info at our InScribed website, like InScribed on Facebook, and follow InScribed on Twitter.

GIVEAWAY! Leave a comment on this post and tomorrow I will choose a random winner of a limited edition InScribed pendant necklace, made by Lisa Leonard!

Stay focused; do not lose site of mercy and truth; engrave them on a pendant, and hang it around your neck; meditate on them so they are written upon your heart. Proverbs 3:3 (The Voice)


InScribed: leading women to not just survive but thrive, encouraging them to immerse themselves in the person of Jesus Christ.

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26 thoughts on “InScribed, Inseparable, and a sob story

  1. So excited for you, Aaron and Xavi, and for the ministry the Lord has given you through your unique struggle. Praying for you guys as you make this transition. I just know it’s going to be a great one. Make sure you let us know how we can help!


  2. Wow! I can’t wait for the opportunity to share these studies with the women of CrossWalk (my home church). Each blog I’ve read this week has been challenging and encouraging. I’m grateful for women who are willing to be vulnerable and allow God to work through their lives and minister to their readers. Thank you!


  3. So looking forward to your study!! This is a topic that God keeps putting on my heart and I’m grateful for all He brings across my path to help answer the age old question of “Who am I?” I too have shared the struggle of depression and am still learning to see myself the way God does while I strive to be who He made me to be!! Thankful my connection with Wendy has led to meeting you!! Blessings to all of you as you move ahead with Inscribed!!


  4. Ashley, I understand where you are and pray for you every day. As others have reminded me, we are always home when God is in our hearts. Cling to Him for your stability.God will use these crazy times in all our lives to do something wonderful!


  5. I am thrilled to have landed here on your site for the first time!
    What an amazing group of ladies, all who share my heart!
    Blessings to YOU during this rough transition time….I once lived in Tennessee and it was a hard place to say good bye to! God has great things in store and the perfect place for you. I am praying that you discover it ASAP! 😉


    1. Sherry, you are the winner of the InScribed necklace!!! Can you please email me your full name and mailing address? (to ashleylinne at gmail) 🙂


  6. Although I am only moving a mile up the road I can still feel your pain in moving and just figuring everything out. I hope all goes well. Thank you for your message as I reflect back on the timing of my move and how everything has come about I am reminded of how I felt some changes were coming although I didn’t know like you I had to rely on God to figure what those changes were. I had to figure out how this was going to change me and help me to rely on God’s word for who he wants me to be during this time of change.


  7. I am not sure about how all this works but I really connected with what you said about fear. I have been such a fearful person all of my life. As my sons have grown older, I have become even more so. The clock is ticking and more of life is behind me than probably in front of me so the fear grows.


    1. Hi Sheila, thank you for your openness in sharing this… fear is definitely something that can paralyze us and suck the life out of us. I am praying right now for you to experience peace and God’s love in tangible ways, and that you have a community of believers who can walk alongside you. I cling to 2 Timothy 1:7 and say it out loud when I’m having a hard time with fear… I really believe there is power in speaking the Word. I hope you’re encouraged today…


  8. Girl. The enemy is throwing some stuff at you and I rejoice in the fact that he is a loser! I’m super excited for this study! Being clothed in Christ is one of my fave themes in Scripture. Hang on for dear life and get this thing done!


  9. I’m praying for you during this move and for little xavi’s health! I know God is going to use your book to reach more women who have struggled with these same doubts and fears…and he will help you through all difficulties of this move.


  10. Did y’all find a place? I hope so! When I talked to you at Oikos, you had found a good “potential” place to live. I don’t envy the many logistical challenges you are figuring out to move here…and can understand the need for a good cry! I will pray that things go smoothly for your family as you make this transition. The Pacific Northwest is a WONDERFUL, B*E*A*U*T*I*F*U*L place to live, but takes a little while to get used to when you arrive from another part of the country. (People can be a little strange here sometimes!) Praying that the Lord gives you the strength you need for each day ahead and all the challenges of not only relocating – but the heart-wrenching goodbyes you’ll be making before you leave. I just discovered your blog and InScribed. 🙂 I’ll be checking them out in the days to come. 🙂


    1. we did find a place! We love it, but it wouldn’t allow pets so we’re having to re-home our dogs (NOT easy for dogs who are 9-10 years old and have been members of the family almost their whole lives). As for adjusting to the PNW, I lived most of my life in New Mexico so not only am I used to people who are a little strange, I’M a little strange! 🙂 The rain and lack of sun will be the huge adjustment for me… Thank you so much for the prayers and keep ’em coming. Can’t wait to get to know more of you guys at Oikos!


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